When Joy Wasn’t Mutual
Date
2024
Size
48 x 48 x 1.5 in (121.92 x 121.92 x 3.81 cm)
Type
Charcoal, Acrylic on canvas
Role
Art Direction, Production
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When Joy Wasn’t Mutual is a haunting celebration of love that was felt deeply by one — and worn loosely by the other. Two lovers laugh in full color, but beneath their shared embrace lies a dissonance — joy drawn from one side, emptiness growing on the other.
The bright colors seduce the eye, but they betray the truth: this wasn’t safety. It was performance. It was a man raised to give all he had — loyalty, peace, presence — to a woman still unsure if she ever wanted to receive it.
Macanjy draws from the most intimate corners of his life: from loving fully, faithfully, and spiritually — and still being met with distance.
The overlaid, translucent repetition of the figures suggests memory, repetition, and unresolved grief. This isn’t a portrait of a moment. It’s a portrait of a pattern.
Rooted in the unspoken trauma of childhood — where love was conditional, and being good didn’t guarantee being kept — this painting exposes how unresolved wounds seek healing in relationships… only to reopen deeper when love is unreturned.
Part of Silent Narrative: Echoes of the Unseen, this work is less about heartbreak and more about truth:
“He didn’t lose her. He lost the illusion.”
Collections: SILENT NARRATIVE: ehoes of the unseen
Subject Matter: Love, Betrayal, Joy as Illusion, Marriage, Emotional Abandonment, Black Masculinity, Healing Through Heartbreak
Current Location: Avant Garde Gallery Toronto
Credits
Anjola Adeniji